Wednesday, January 13, 2010


by U2

Grace, she takes the blame
She covers the shame
Removes the stain
It could be her name

Grace, it's a name for a girl
It's also a thought that changed the world

And when she walks on the street
You can hear the strings
Grace finds goodness in everything

Grace, she's got the walk
Not on a ramp or on chalk
She's got the time to talk
She travels outside of karma, karma
She travels outside of karma

When she goes to work
You can hear the strings
Grace finds beauty in everything

Grace, she carries a world on her hips
No champagne flute for her lips
No twirls or skips between her fingertips
She carries a pearl in perfect condition
What once was hurt, what once was friction
What left a mark no longer stains
Because Grace makes beauty out of ugly things

Grace finds beauty in everything
Grace finds goodness in everything 

Sunday, January 10, 2010

All that probably doesn't matter

I can forget about everything else if i don't seek God and His will first, and allowing His lordship over me and my life. Period.

Didn't think it'd be spiritual. I felt SO MUCH BETTER after being prayed for. A full armor of God i'll put on.
Thank You God for this timely and desperately needed help and reminder.

And thanks Angel (a very apt name given :).

Are You Ready?

"...because love covers over a multitude of sins."

-1 Peter 4: 8b
Something i did for my fellowship's Retreat (to be held on the first weekend of Febuary 2010).

On the back cover it says:
"Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him."

-Matthew 24: 42-44

That long overdue New Year post (2nd attempt)

So i've spent my New Year's Eve working at Mr Man's (a chinese restaurant). I quite enjoyed it- plus i'd rather be indoors being useful than being outdoor freezed into an iceblock.

Entertainers were hired, which comprised of a quite elderly lady singer (she has a good voice for her age IMHO) and a guy playing a keyboard. A reasonable-sized dance floor was opened and people started dancing towards the end of the night (especially some elderly couples - which i thought were so sweet! :)

At the border of 2009's end, we all took a break from whatever we were doing and celebrated together the coming of 2010. With May's arm on my shoulder, we counted down and sang 'Auld Lang Syne', while watching people dancing, cheering and being happy.

I agreed with Gretha (my fellow receptionist :) that celebrating New Year in the whole atmosphere of the restaurant feels different, but nice.

So i was quite happy.


In 2009, besides all the failures, shame and bumps along the way, I'm glad that it's been quite a significant year of growth, understanding and seeing things clearer.
Among some of the life-changing significant events/experiences were:
  • Going through my first winter.
  • Experiencing real snow for the first time.
  • Dancing with Nusantara.
  • Going for New Word Alive conference.
  • Going for my first backpacking trip- in Pisa, Rome and Florence, with Fiona.
  • Finding out how profound Yasmin Ahmad is as a person after her sudden death.
  • Knowing and understanding more about people (including myself), meeting new ones and forging closer bonds with some old ones.
  • Finishing my first year of university and going on to the second one.
  • Starting my part-time job.
  • Turning 20.
Some of the things to remember in 2010:
  • Be balanced.
  • "No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up."
  • I'm stepping into my final year of university end of this year (!).
  • I'm no more a kid.
  • But don't lose your child-like faith.
  • Live your waking moments. Take one moment at a time.
  • Don't let your passion die but renew yourself in God's presence everyday.
  • It's a relationship.
  • "Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about."
  • You're just a tiny lil dot in The Big Picture.
  • But you play a crucial role in making a difference.
  • You're still a work in progress.
  • Give your best in all that you can do.
  • Trust God in what you can't.
  • Being punctual is a choice!
  • Be more optimistic.
  • Celebrate even the small things
  • Love.
  • Rejoice!
Today, already 10th day of the year. 355 more days for the year.

Though, Malaysia have not had a good start for the year, very sad and discouraging in fact. But quite an eye-opener as well. 10 more years to 2020. Can we actually achieve a 'fully developed country' status in 10 years time?

Start. Beginnings. Who defines where and when are the starting points anyway? Just because we live in the dimension of time, every passing second is new, clean, unwritten, waiting to be filled with choices, and the rewards and consequences that comes with it. And who knows, pleasant surprises in disguise may come too?

Maybe because i've been dragging this post for way too long, i think i've lost 'it'. I've got too much to be translated into words. much for wanting this post to be short and sweet. Nevermind.

Being ready is probably a choice too.

2010, you're going to be a great year- not in the sense that everything will turn out well, but because God is good and His intentions and purposes are good.
 Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. 
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland.

-Isaiah 43:18-19 to click the 'Publish Post' button and get it done and over with!

    Tuesday, January 5, 2010

    The girl on a swing

    Image by rosieaprilleeson

    So i could finally draw a line across "Do something to my boring/ childish/ totally uninspiring blog header." on my to-do list.

    Think the girl in that photo above looks similar to the one in the header? Yep, i used this photo as a reference. Boo~ :P

    Our somedays will soon be todays and then they will eventually turn into yesterdays. Our yesterdays used to be somedays that became todays and end up what they are now - yesterdays.

    I will live my todays as todays, and let my yesterdays be yesterdays, and knowing that my somedays... will become todays eventually.

    And my days are my lifesong to my Maker, my story in His Grand Story.

    I will learn to make that choice everyday.

    For some reason , i find that there's always something beautiful about an image of a girl on a swing...

    Maybe because it is the thought of being totally worry-free and responsibility-free that is inviting (Is that also called laziness?). In total peace. Being able to forget the need to be concerned about time passing by and being able to be idle-minded or daydream into my somedays.

    Or is it because of the thought of being off the ground and pretend to be able to fly...

    ...but not going anywhere.

    Isn't that self-deceiving?

    At least i can still Hope.

    The image of 'a girl on a swing' in my mind has always been one sitting on a swing.

    I guess it's time for her to stand.