Wednesday, March 17, 2010

The best for us

Today, Carmen's mum said across the lines of, there's no need to compare our lives with others because God gives us the best for us, therefore whatever we have now (our lives, the people we're with, including the ones we dislike), whatever we're going through, is already God's best for us, now, in this present moment and season.

Wow, what a thought.

It's only natural for some of us to think that the best is yet to come. And we're always waiting, and waiting, and waiting, for the best to come. But i guess i should stop waiting, for God has already given me the best, but i've not been contented but blinded with greed and dissatisfaction and threw silent tantrums, always wishing i'm elsewhere, living in my somedays instead of being present.

It's like looking at others having mouth-watering yeow char kwai, assam laksa and satay celup, and you want those too, but your mum says:" No, you are sick, and those are very unhealthy for you, now, eat up your veggies and swallow up your bowl of (yucky) chinese medicine that i've made for you, out of my love for you."

What's best for other people, doesn't mean that it's the best for me, just because each of us is wired differently by our Maker. Though God owns the whole universe, the best that our heavenly Father can give, will be more than what we can imagine, but what He wants to give, might not be the great and wonderful things i expect, but He knows us inside-out and what we need, and He will deal with us in ways He deem best for each of us, individually, tailor-made for who we are. And the fact that He wants the best for us, He gives not just the second best, but the best to us, for us

His own life and this intimate relationship with Him are the best things for us that He has already given. But sadly, i've taken them for granted, sometimes even forgotten and didn't treasure these precious gifts (paid with a very heavy price) as much as i should.

As i'm typing this, i'm reminded of Sarah Lim's post on choosing God day by day. Since God has already given His best for me, it's my choice, my responsibility to choose Him, to choose and live the best He has already given.

Enough of driving myself insane with so much negativity (and sorry for spreading so much negativity too, it's so energy draining). I will learn to choose to see that the cup is half-full, not half-empty.

Maybe i should play the glad game. (Now that the sun is out and the days longer, it'll be easier).

And yes, the best is yet to come. But for now, this, today, would suffice, because it is already the best.

Romans 8:28 looks different but clearer now. :)

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

sank in

Monday, March 1, 2010

Every Season

Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children’s games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer 

And even when the trees have just surrendered
To the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice You when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and was to come
You are autumn 

And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for life to enter
You are winter 

And everything that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
What was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season’s change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring


It's been painful, but I'm grateful.